Date: 2007-10-10 18:42 Subject: wow. Security: Public

it's been ages since i've posted on here! i don't even know how to get back on writing journal entries and trying to update everyone about my life.

um...i'm not seeing anyone right now. i'm just dating around. a few months back, i decided that i needed to enjoy my youth and not be in a serious relationship with alex even though we're still good friends (luckily).

i joined a sorority a year and a half ago (2nd semester sophomore year) and it's been amazing ever since! i'm not anything important, i didn't want an officer position.

i don't really know if anyone else sees me this way but i just feel as if i've grown up a lot. things have just sort of come into perspective especially it being my senior year this year about how i need to be serious about my education and my future. i'm still partying, don't get me wrong hahaha! but i definitely have my goals more defined and in mind more often.

so how's everybody else???

Date: 2006-10-18 22:55 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public

does anybody even remember me anymore? :(

Date: 2005-11-30 13:17 Subject: don't leave now Security: Public

i'm in love with my housemates. last night the 6 of us just sat down in the downstairs living room and talked for like 3 hours about everything you can think about. first we watched the real world reunion thing, and we were SO shocked about how nehemiah and rachel were dissing danny! and ahhhh melinda and he got engaged! so sweet. and wes and johanna? crazy!

molly has this issue where this guy she hooked up with a month ago just got tested, and is HIV positive. he just told her yesterday, and i could not believe it. we're waiting for her to go get tested...i'm so worried. but think about it...the people that this guy hooked up with, and the guys molly hooked up with since him...and then the people THEY hooked up with. it's so scary to think about. i think the stat for our campus is like 1/3 people have an STD. disgusting.

Date: 2005-11-29 00:37 Subject: oh my gosh... Security: Public

i love him!

Date: 2005-10-16 23:48 Subject: can't get back what's already lost! Security: Public

so i'm at home for my fall break, and how weird it is.

alex is out of town with his family in california for the whole break, so we've been apart for the first time in months!

mere and laney have been over and we've been hanging out, and half of me thinks it's just like old times, while the other half of me wonders why i'm even bothering, and that half of me wishes i was back at school, with the people i've spent the past year and some months with nonstop.

sure, my friends at home are my best friends still, and they were with me throughout my whole life growing up. but i somewhat feel like they've changed and i've changed and when we get back together it's still natural and yet fake. i don't know, i feel horrible for saying this but it's true. i don't know what to think, really.

alex is the only real person i have from home and school who understands EVERYTHING about me, and knows the same people that i know. i don't have doubt that if my best friends hung out with my college friends (which they will sometime next month i think), that they'll click. but still, things are SO DIFFERENT. ahhhh

Date: 2005-10-16 23:39 Subject: is your man on the floor? Security: Public

AHHHHHHHHHHH

new obsession: nip/tuck
still obsessed: laguna beach (OH MY GOD the newest episode w/the part where talan was in the garage made me cry)
doesn't seem that good but i will probably watch: miss seventeen (if i was there i would blow them out of the water! hahahaha...not)
counting down till new episodes: OC!

p.s. anna and darcy and sam and amy and whoever else...NG I MISS YOU!

Date: 2005-08-08 19:18 Subject: the language of a lover Security: Public

holy crappola i have not updated this in forever! i am still alive, ladies and gentlemen.

everything is going well in my life. sort of stressful though? i'm taking 2 summer classes that have been hell. and trying to balance a job at this law office, simultaneously...it's so much time i don't have to spend doing fun things.

but i am loving my summer in the college town, with my wonderful friends and fabulous boyfriend alex. i'm in a great house with some cute girls that i met this summer, to sublet for my friends who are moving in this week. it's so odd being out of the dorms and living actually in a place where you pay rent and bills and i don't know i just feel so adult-ish :)

i have a large large large craving to go shopping. i feel like i deserve a spree soon, i really want some new skirts. and shirts. and flip flops. and belts. and whatnot.

also i got a kitten recently. her name is pookie. lol she's black with some white, soooo cute. except she scratches a lot and i am going to have to train her better.

i'm famished. time to go eat!

does anyone still watch big brother??????? i'm pretty addicted, again.

please vote kaysar back into the house!!!!

Date: 2005-03-11 23:33 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public

omg so ryan and marissa need to get back together (OC talk, of course)

and during the show i saw the star wars trailer and ahhhh i forgot how hot hayden christensen is!!! you work that longer hair, boy!



i'm on spring break :)

Date: 2005-01-07 01:01 Subject: jen and brad!!! Security: Public

omg jennifer aniston and brad pitt broke up!



http://et.tv.yahoo.com/celebrities/2005/01/08/bradandjenbreakup/

sad....

Date: 2005-01-02 01:26 Subject: laguna beach!!! Security: Public

You are Lo!


Which Laguna Beach Cast Member are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

and i updated my interests, lol

Date: 2005-01-01 02:26 Subject: can you lose my breath Security: Public

so my new year's eve was pretty fun. i ended up going to this party thrown by a guy i knew in high school, it was strange seeing so many old faces again. there were probably like 50 people there, 30 of whom i knew. i had to keep mere and lane with me almost at all times because i felt sort of awkward around certain people, especially this weird creepy guy who wouldn't stop talking about school and academics. the three of us shared fabulous champagne, and it was a good night overall. i didn't kiss anyone at midnight, though i did meet up w/ben at around 2 at his house, where we hung out till like 4...me and lane, and him and some other kids who just gathered over there to hang out. and i got a late new year's kiss from ben, it was wonderful...

i don't know what else to think or say really because we had broken up because of my moving away from the hometown for college, and plus there's just so much other history and stuff involved.

alex was at the first party, but of course he's not single still. blah.

hope everybody else had a great new year's :)

Date: 2004-12-31 15:17 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public

new obsession: lucas black



and that's all i have to say, really. :) eee

Date: 2004-12-16 00:14 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public

i'm home!!! :) so happy to be back. i got back yesterday, after my last exam.

exam week was HORRIBLE...i seriously probably got 5 hours of sleep in 3 days.

mere and lane and i went shopping today, but no one bought anything...we set our sights on certain things that we need for other people though.

so i must say that i'm in love with chris from the real gilligan's island. no, seriously.

Date: 2004-10-15 20:14 Subject: don't walk away from me! Security: Public

hey yall!!! how's it going? i haven't updated in FOREVER, and there's just so much i have to write about but i don't know if i can figure out what i want to say

hmm...well i'm currently at home, after a long 2 months away from home. it feels SO good to be back. but the only other person that is back that i really really really want to see is lane! other schools don't have the same fall break that we do, and that sucks! but there are some people at the college here, and so i'll probably see them...though it's not that exciting.

but it is good to be home, in my own room, with my parents...i love my house, i realize that now.

i've met so many cool people at school, i really love college. um i did rush week for the sororities, but didn't end up pledging. kinda glad i didn't :)

but i have been going out with some friends and others, it's been so cool...SO different than high school parties lmao. keggers and bars rock! and college night at places...omg so fun. but i'm still studying :)

um my roommate katie is so cool! she's like my twin...personalitywise that is.

DREW WON BB5! ahhhh super. lol

that new justin song on the shark tale soundtrack, not feeling it :(
the ciarra song goodies is SO OFF THE CHAIN but it's sorta old, but not to me! lol
the new britney song = swell too
so is the destiny's child song, which was REALLY irritating at first, but i like it now?
oh and MY BOO is sooooooooooo good.

well that's enough from me. comment if you like, and maybe that'll mean i'll post again soon! :)

Date: 2004-08-20 01:21 Subject: ITS TIME!!! Security: Public

eeeeeeeeeeee today is the day i move out of my house, into a city hours away, into a place where i have to share my room for the first time, into a place where i have to use a shower that isn't mine (WITH SHOWER SHOES), a place where i have to lay down toilet paper on the seat, a place where i have to walk up more than 1 flight of stairs to get to my room, a place where there are boys sleeping below me

ahhhh i'm so anxious/scared/nervous/excited!

i leave in the morning at around 10, and move-in is from 2-4.

omigosh it's so crazy...i'm gonna bust into tears tomorrow



carly patterson was awesome! :) and paul hamm...woo woo!

*sigh*

Date: 2004-08-17 01:30 Subject: call me beep meeeeeeeeeee Security: Public

ok so don't get me wrong, i LOVE christina milian and all. love her.



but dip it low...is this really the same girl who sang "call me beep me"? LOL

anyway..in other news, i got some really cute sheets and a comforter today, it's pink and white. LOVE IT! :)

Date: 2004-08-14 03:31 Subject: got bruises on my heart... Security: Public Mood: crazy Music: Ashlee Simpson - Autobiography

so i'm so excited about the olympics...i will be tuning in every day, i hope. :)

i really want ashlee simpson's new cd...i've heard good things about it! and i have some of the songs downloaded, but i want the cd to bust out in my car so i can groove and move all up in there lol

i have a new icon, drew from bb...ya likey?

ok so my little "mission makeover" that i do every so once in a while is happening again. if yall don't know what this is, it's when i feel really nasty/gross/in need, and i decide to try to fix myself...for many reasons. mostly to make myself feel better and have more self-confidence since it's so important how you see yourself. but other little reasons, ilke so people don't get scared and run away when they see me. or babies don't cry as they pass me in their little strollers on the street. also just to give me something to do. oh gosh i sound so superficial, apologies...but i'm mainly doing this for myself, not for anyone else. i swear!

so what does this entail you ask? each time it's different, but essentially the same for some parts. the last time i did this was probably back in april for prom. but i have to:
1) touch up my roots (since i'm not naturally brunette)
2) use some face masks
3) THOROUGHLY exfoliate my whole body
4) re-tan, and get a glow somehow
5) whiten my teeth
6) go running and tone my body better
7) get my abs back!
8) get someone to do my nails all nice

stuff like that. i MUST do this fast, before i go to college in 1 week!!!! (so nervous)

ew i'm a skank.

someone comment so i know that people still read this!

Date: 2004-07-28 15:38 Subject: well i guess i was lucky Security: Public

oh MY GOSH i was at the grocery store today and i saw the cover of US weekly, and justin and cameron were on it!!!!! and omg justin looked SO fine, one of the finest times i've ever seen him....he looked SO good.

omigosh can someone give me a link or post for me the picture? sooooo good.

big brother...

i can't believe drew put up adria! and marvin is so dislikable right now...too bad he's so clueless



jase and brad pitt lmfao

Date: 2004-07-21 21:35 Subject: how do you know? Security: Public

big brother is soooooo addicting. i love it.
will is SUCH a good dresser! i love it.
drew is so beloved and he knows it. i love it.
holly might be fronting with her ditziness, to some degree. i love it.
jase has a fineass body! i love it.

jennifer got a mohawk. i don't love it.
scott is so conceited. i don't love it.
michael is so weak and influenced. i don't love it.
lori wants to go home. i don't love it. (i mean, why did you sign up for the show?)

Date: 2004-07-17 19:22 Subject: i must say that Security: Public

phil of the future rocks!



and so does ricky ullman...anna you were right on